I try so hard to keep doing things right. I send long messages showing you how I feel with praise and acknowledgement and I feel so stupid. What ticked me off was “I was kinda hoping to have a few days to build up the excitement (tell me if that sounds stupid) so when I see you, it’ll be really good.” So it’s not good when you see me in general? I don’t want to see you for a while now.  

I feel actual so sick. Y TUMMY Y?